(:

booooooooo,
busybusybusy! x=

haven't got time to get in fb or blogger these days!
hahhh, thanks jeri for handling my fb! (:
love ya! =D

Mmm,
was packing my room a few days back,
and i found some stuffs around my room.
hah, you were amazing!
i really thank you for that.

but anyways,
got to work hard and extra harder for the next 6 months!
to reach my goal!
=D

i really love everything about my life now,
true friends stay by your side when your in trouble,
and family's always the one that you fall back on in the end.
i want to really thank you guys! (:
Every single one of us should be appreciated and loved.
especially people around me, i will care for every single one of them!
because , i know, whats like to be in trouble and needing somebody,
whats like to be lost and wanting some directions.
i will try my very best to help.

After each and everyday's reflection,
i feel so apologetic and guilty of what i actually did in the past.
the words i said, the things i did, the trouble i created.
it's so selfish and unreasonable.
but, we can only be a better person in the future.
Be nicer to everyone else.
i just know, i'll never fall back again.
i must check back everyday, and reflect deeply! (:

i thank god for bringing me up and out.
thank god for taking whats meant to be taken away at the right time from my life.
thankgod for creating a better tmr for me.
thank god for bringing the ones who needed you to the light.
i won't disappoint you.

& i have faith in you,
to have the ability to think for yourself.
i'll pray to god everyday for you to wake up,
just in time.


something deep in my heart tells me,
i never would have known love,
if i had never met you.
ilu.
thanks love.

moving onnnnnnn~

awww,

strawberry shortcake! (:

it's like the most amazing cake of all cakes on earth.

damnnnnn.

iwant it!

soooo,

while posting,

there's like one very annoying person beside me,

trying to irritate me.

but noooo!

think of strawberry shortcake,

think of loveeeee~ (:

muahahahs!

and so,

going on to my planzzzz.

gna go for some interviews,

classes,

lessons.

goddamnit,

so much to do,

so lil time!

arghhhhs.

get out of singapore ftw~

target!

27thdec2010. =DD

you.

mm,

i'm striving for my goal right now!
arghs,
can't be pushed downnnn!
nonono.

soooo,
gna go get some destination check in august,
boooo.
i have like 7 more months to do all my checkings,
goals achieving and stuffs like such.

i'll miss singapore! ):
i swearrrr!
but noooo,
me and jeri agreed on meeting in france,
to my graduation day!
wahahahas! =D


it's a deal~


& thanks for being here! (:

19th.

sweeet19th! (:

mm, can't upload photos! ):

but anyways,
had quite a birthday this year,
although my dearest wenwen is not in sg!
missed her much~

there's jeridynamics to the rescue! =D
okay, i'm going to dedicate the following post to her!

She's very sweet, lovely and indestructable!
awesome, wonderful, intellectual
she got it all~
She's my sister!
and my closest friend.
she will never pretend, always her true and true.
most importantly, she's always beside me when i'm in deep shit!

okay, don't get too flattered!
LOL.
just know your awesome babe. (:
we'll successfully attack attk okay?!
i promise!


crazy as it seems,
i feel sooooo loved! =D
i feel so much love today.
& so, i'm going to dedicate another post to you.



i'm sorry if i ever said any bad things,
offending words or even hurt you in anyway i did.
i'm sorry for the way i was the times before.
i feel so fucked up at then, i know i sucked.
but i truly and sincerely hope you will forgive what i did.
and let bygones be bygones.
i understand it might be hard, hatred and all.
Let's not trace back, or even talk about who started it first.
or whatever that's going on, real or fake.
but just know,
that today, standing in your shoes,
i know exactly how you feel, or felt.
i don't blame anyone for bearing this huge grudge against what i was,
but what matters now, is what that's important.
i don't mind the ugly words, the hurting post.
because, i know, we were friends before.
and i truly want to show that i am,
very sincere in waking myself up, and getting things right.
so, hope you will read this post,i truly am sorry wendy.

and royston, i know you meant well in everyway that day.
i apologise for my brother.
but, he really cares for me in every single way,
so don't take it too hard okay?



loves,
mabel.

LOVED. (:

& sooooo, MY FIRST CELEBRATION. (:
Last night.
at copthorne, had some awesomeeee buffet,
and my very wonderful cake! =D
for the last 10 years!
every year, daddy will order this amazing cake from four seasons.
its really delicious! ((:
and i only get to have it every once a year.
hehhhhhh!

this year's bday's abit different.
mmm,
my cousin and future cousin to be is inside!
and my lovely uncleeeeee! (:

i feel sooooo loved! =D


i have to specially thank,
my dearestttt,
MUMMY &DADDY.
for giving me such a wonderful birthday.
THANKYOU!

heeeeees,
and mummy secretly placed a present on my bed beside me,
while i was sleeping.
hehhhh.


off to bath~
ciaos~!

REFRESHHHH!

it's 820pm! =D

and soooo,

many things happened recently!

erpsssss, i think i'm missing out on some memoriessss.

damnnnn!

i want to specially thank,

my dearestttt dearesttttt,

JERIDYNLIM & ZWENWEN.

mmm,

you guys are like the greatest greatest gift to me from god!

thanks for being there when i needed you guys,

and really thanks for keeping my memory for me. (:

i feel really happy and reallly lucky to be loved by you both!

i thank god,

for giving me a chance to start a fresh,

for taking that part which was not meant to be there

away from me.

thank god, for giving me another chance , another life.

thank god for helping me, for listening to my prayers. (:

and thank god for bestowing such lovely friends around me!

mygoddd,

there are like sooo many people i have to thank,

and i really really am happy to have so many people around me who loves me,

and who care for me! =D

i'm sorry if i ever treated anyone of you,

like you were not suppose to.

and i sincerely wish, from the bottom of my heart,

that everyone is to be happy,

and to be able to find themselves somewhere in life.

failure is not the end,

because, it's the start of a new beginning! (:

do not ever blame anyone,

but reflect deeply upon yourself.

because, i did found myself.

i've successfully created a new life!

striving for europeeee! =DD

JIAYOUS!

thedays.

it's 328am,
friday night.

had a chat with a friend few days back,
thinking back.
such lovely memories.

the world's changing so fast.
time flies.
how i wished i could just paused it,
right there, right then.
that exact moment in my head right now.
it was beautiful.


sometimes, when your moving too fast ahead,
people tend to forget why they even started.
as simple as it is, it's still complicated.
changes made, targets changed.
greed, evil, surfaced~

regrets are inevitable,
though its all over, behind you.
people tend to look back, pause,
and always want to turn back the time.
but no, it can never be.
we can only look forward and be a better person.
whatever learnt, will always stay with you.
despite 20318472358241miles away.

never complain, criticize or condemn.
everybody's got their own story,
everyone's got a heart.

whatever he/she may look,
how ever bad he/she may be.
no matter what he/she did.
we must always learn to forgive and forget,
grudges are the worst thing that can happen.
because, it will always make one unhappy.



through this,
i learnt.
if god were to give me another chance to choose,
i'd still choose you.
because,
that's love.


&i'm happy that you are.
godbless.

free.

& i do.


you,
made me thought it could.
you,
made it happen.
you,
allowed it to.
you
created life.
you,
never fail to create happiness.

that's why i love you.


" if i can't, i must. if i must, i can! "
(:

your the greatest gift,
at the greatest moment.

thankyou for coming in.

change.

it's 848pm,

& i'm, in office, again.
it has just been less than 48 hours.
and i'm almost giving up.
but, my heart says, no.

yesterday's been a pretty long day,
it felt like it was probably 3 days added together.

just want to really let him know,
i've learnt alot from him and us.
this relationship, this bond.
i know i'm just hurting right now,
but yet, hes been hurt for the past few months.
and lousy me, being a girlf cant even do any changes.
altho, i always say i would,
but still did not take notice.

i'm sorry,
i can't do without you,
can't let you go.

but, after a talk,
i've come to realise,
i can't do this.
keeping you by me, is not a problem solved.
it's only for me, for this short period.
loving a person, is to be happy with him/her.

if leaving me, would make you happy,
i'd gladly.

had a talk with a friend,
he said,
"she left me because she love me,
because she knows i'd be better without her,
i can strive harder and work harder, without being pulled down by relationship."
and i fully understood, whats love.

i know, i should have realised it soon enough,
but it's too late.
i know i should change,
in almost everything.
i'm going to go all out for it.

you shall have your life, your fun, your love.
for nothing's left of me in you, but a scar.
i truly regret hurting you badly,
and did'tn give you the love you should get.
i'm sorry yet again.

i missed you,
but i know i'll be strong.
you might never want to see me again,
but this i promise, the very next time you see me,
it's a different me.
because, i love you, and i cherish this.



we'll be, if we're meant to be.

define love.

mm, its now 655am in the morning.

it's monday people!

yet i'm posting another randomn ttm blogpost.
this is horrible.

just had a rough night,
imagine you never ever got drunk and puked,
but yet, it was the very first time.
you puked a whole freaking dustbin out.
damn terrible!

i just want to say,
i'm out, pretty stress out, and done.
i can't wipe away what i saw,
can't erase away what happen.
one's someone i love deeply,
one's my good ....

to you :

i did my very best, i tried really hard.
to not see you sad,
to be there for you when you need someone.
to try to rebrand you and make you look nicer,
or rather more mature.
i'm sorry if i don't have enough time for you anymore,
because i'm really busy.
or currently, ain't that close to you anymore,
because, certain things or issues, do not allow us to be close like before.

but, why do you want to do this to me?
why?
i thought you were great,
but yet, i was wrong.
i hate to admit that i'm wrong,
but what's infront of me, is never never wrong.
please, i'm really feeling shit.


&to you :

i thought love was something special.
i thought, you and me creates love.
i thought we were the happiest couple ever.
i thought you were the one,
& i thought you loved me.


10mths,
&i'm done.

god, help.

It's 820am right now, and i haven't slept for the whole night.

feeling a lil lost, yet my love one's beside me right now.

can i deny the fact that, that night happened?

trying so hard to push it away, because, i'm crazily in love.

i want to send a message to god right now,

hoping he can give me a guidance,

and lead me through.

i'm sick, tired.

Dear God,

please help me get through this stage.

It's really hard to trust the person you love the most when everything's just

so sudden.

It's been almost a year, and yet a whole lifetime to come.

I really can't live without him, and i don't wish to leave him.

I truly pray, i want to get out of this thought,

this crazy headaches constantly at night.

this frustrating paranoid mind.

why? i really don't know.

Want to have trust,

want to pretend nothing happened.

but no, you disallow.

how i wish i was this stupid girl,

who knows nothing but just fall in love.

And i would'tn have to do this time and again,

and find out more.

This is

crazy, shit.

RANDOMN.

lolli, lolli.

yay! =D
mm, i got a lollipop! wahahahahs
like 2 days ago.

baby appeared at the office with a lollipop in his hand. (:
heeeeeeeees.
THANKS BABY!

mm, and soooo,
its 2 weeks to new year,
went out with rivy on sunday,
got a few stuff from riverisland,
and decided to just go plain this new year.
haven got really much time anyways.
went to lebar on sat,
opened at least 15 bottles for karen!
LOL.
hope your happy sweetie. (:

going to do my nails tmr, and bought some bird nest for my dear angeline!
awww,
missed her.

mm, got to do some really fast network for this 2 weeks.
CHEERS EVERYBODY.

we can do it. (:

ruisheng's birthday's coming.
so saturday lebar! =D

goodluck people.

thoughts.

hm,
its the 7th! =D
mm, got a whole loads of things for my baby!

so, its the seventh,
eventually,
seven very wonderful things!
too lazy to post it up, so
firstly : an itouch~ for baby and me!
secondly : of course, the screen protector,
with mirror, cause baby's always hogging the mirror.
and the leather casing for my love! its coldplay art. wooooo~

thirdly : a zippo lighter, which baby wanted it since the last spoilt. booo.
fourth : a planner, a list of notes, some sticky notes all from kikki-k! =D
it cost a bomb! X= so you better use it!
fifth : the edhardy perfume! =D hahahas,
it was release not more than a week!
hHa, its damn damn damn cool!

sixth: the wonderful ECLAIRS and cookiessssss.

and lastly, the very very meaningful card, plus a letter. its damn cute. =D

and thank JERIIII!
so so so much, for accompanying me, even though, we went around here and there,
up and down, in and out.
hehhhhs, YOUR THE BEST. lets go for some nice dinner soon.
MY TREAT! promiseeee.

hmmm,
and apart from that, ive totally lost my voice! ):
and i plan on going home today.
mr augustine tan has just flew to cambodia!
missessssssssssss . .

mm, hope my voice will just appear somewhere,
somehow.

mm, meeting up with wen soon.
missed ya! =D

anyways, thanks baby, for the camera. (:
lovesyou ttmdb.


ciaos.

sick.

ahhhh, ):

baby's like on his way to office,
and i'm stuck at his house!
ain't feeling well at all.

booooo.

so, am like online shopping-ing,
damnnnn.
wna go shop shop shop.

haven't got a chance though.
since i came back from taiwan.

missed going out with my dearies!
my jeri and wenwen. ):
bleahs,
time for some shopping sweeties! =D

new year's coming.
mmm,
i wish mummy won't be angry with me leaving home.

babyyyyyyyyyy! time to bring me out for some shoppinggggg!

shitballlzzzzz.

boooooomz! LOL.
ers, sooooo,
after seven month of r/s with my baby.
we finally watch our second movie !
LOL, first is like harry potter.
and can you believe it,
sherlock homes second,
and of course.
THE STUPID GORE TTMDB SHOW. -.-

mm,
and after some persuading of my papa,
i finally went home last night.
but told him, i'm not going back till mayb,
next month?
LOL.
pathetic , ain't it?
but its just so sick.
arghs.

anyways,
seminar tmr!

go euroclass! =D

...

after some scrolling, clicking, typing.

mm, i should admit, that.
she's indeed classic,
posture, looks , angles.
nothing compared to her.

but,
one thing for sure, i'm the best in baby's eyes! =D
he's the best!
there are like 101 things i can say about him,
how he pampers me,
how he makes me feel so loved,
how he creates my wonderful life,
how one smile just makes my day.

don't leave me baby,
cause, if you do,
i'll just die!

i love you honey,
let's create our future! =D
grats on our first 15k!

(:

just us. (:

soooo, it's another day at baby's, haven't been home for quite awhile.
probably am going to stay for a few more days.
just got really sick of home and all.
time to change my life.
mmmm, so some random craps.
booooooo,
and went to le bar just now again, like have been there 3 times a week.
arghs,
waiting for wen to upload the pics.
boring shitttttttzzzxzxz!

BEN GOT ME THIS! cute aint it?! =D

boomz! =D and there goes my rubbish.

LOL.

mm, and grats to us,

we just earned a whole month's expenditure! (:

who cares about allowance when you can afford a car!

hahas, =D

ciaos.

& anotheryear.

YET , another year! (:

hahas, start off with a nice bbq at baby's! =D

this is officially HIGH CLASS BBQ.

i mean, when did you see BBQ without charcoal and fire starters. LOL. alright dear philip's here for holis from US. =D

our very very own CHEF. =D

andddddddd, THE END. =D

good luck everyone, to 2010.

photos.

new year count down! =D

NEWYEAR. (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS. (:

mm,
went to euroclass count down.
hahas,
a new year, new start!
got to start planning my schedules.

goals to reach :
1) get a diploma
2) earn at least 100k by june.
3) be happy! =D

hm,
and met up with benedict yesterday,
such inspirational talks.
boo,
i'm gna work very hard! (:
and school's starting tmr,
met diana today!
hahahas,

had, dinner and all.
bought another whole lot of anna sui's again.
and lucky her,
bought some for her too.
hahas.
and went to garden's to chill,
with baby, jerold , zach and korkor.

hahhhhhhhs,
tmr meeting diana's parents! =D
it's been so long!

hahas,
chill peeps,
you'll never get enough in your life!
we humans will never be satisfied,
sooo,
EARN MORE,
and you can spend more.
lol,
and thats my aim of life. =D


ciaos.