change.

it's 848pm,

& i'm, in office, again.
it has just been less than 48 hours.
and i'm almost giving up.
but, my heart says, no.

yesterday's been a pretty long day,
it felt like it was probably 3 days added together.

just want to really let him know,
i've learnt alot from him and us.
this relationship, this bond.
i know i'm just hurting right now,
but yet, hes been hurt for the past few months.
and lousy me, being a girlf cant even do any changes.
altho, i always say i would,
but still did not take notice.

i'm sorry,
i can't do without you,
can't let you go.

but, after a talk,
i've come to realise,
i can't do this.
keeping you by me, is not a problem solved.
it's only for me, for this short period.
loving a person, is to be happy with him/her.

if leaving me, would make you happy,
i'd gladly.

had a talk with a friend,
he said,
"she left me because she love me,
because she knows i'd be better without her,
i can strive harder and work harder, without being pulled down by relationship."
and i fully understood, whats love.

i know, i should have realised it soon enough,
but it's too late.
i know i should change,
in almost everything.
i'm going to go all out for it.

you shall have your life, your fun, your love.
for nothing's left of me in you, but a scar.
i truly regret hurting you badly,
and did'tn give you the love you should get.
i'm sorry yet again.

i missed you,
but i know i'll be strong.
you might never want to see me again,
but this i promise, the very next time you see me,
it's a different me.
because, i love you, and i cherish this.



we'll be, if we're meant to be.