moving onnnnnnn~

awww,

strawberry shortcake! (:

it's like the most amazing cake of all cakes on earth.

damnnnnn.

iwant it!

soooo,

while posting,

there's like one very annoying person beside me,

trying to irritate me.

but noooo!

think of strawberry shortcake,

think of loveeeee~ (:

muahahahs!

and so,

going on to my planzzzz.

gna go for some interviews,

classes,

lessons.

goddamnit,

so much to do,

so lil time!

arghhhhs.

get out of singapore ftw~

target!

27thdec2010. =DD

you.

mm,

i'm striving for my goal right now!
arghs,
can't be pushed downnnn!
nonono.

soooo,
gna go get some destination check in august,
boooo.
i have like 7 more months to do all my checkings,
goals achieving and stuffs like such.

i'll miss singapore! ):
i swearrrr!
but noooo,
me and jeri agreed on meeting in france,
to my graduation day!
wahahahas! =D


it's a deal~


& thanks for being here! (:

19th.

sweeet19th! (:

mm, can't upload photos! ):

but anyways,
had quite a birthday this year,
although my dearest wenwen is not in sg!
missed her much~

there's jeridynamics to the rescue! =D
okay, i'm going to dedicate the following post to her!

She's very sweet, lovely and indestructable!
awesome, wonderful, intellectual
she got it all~
She's my sister!
and my closest friend.
she will never pretend, always her true and true.
most importantly, she's always beside me when i'm in deep shit!

okay, don't get too flattered!
LOL.
just know your awesome babe. (:
we'll successfully attack attk okay?!
i promise!


crazy as it seems,
i feel sooooo loved! =D
i feel so much love today.
& so, i'm going to dedicate another post to you.



i'm sorry if i ever said any bad things,
offending words or even hurt you in anyway i did.
i'm sorry for the way i was the times before.
i feel so fucked up at then, i know i sucked.
but i truly and sincerely hope you will forgive what i did.
and let bygones be bygones.
i understand it might be hard, hatred and all.
Let's not trace back, or even talk about who started it first.
or whatever that's going on, real or fake.
but just know,
that today, standing in your shoes,
i know exactly how you feel, or felt.
i don't blame anyone for bearing this huge grudge against what i was,
but what matters now, is what that's important.
i don't mind the ugly words, the hurting post.
because, i know, we were friends before.
and i truly want to show that i am,
very sincere in waking myself up, and getting things right.
so, hope you will read this post,i truly am sorry wendy.

and royston, i know you meant well in everyway that day.
i apologise for my brother.
but, he really cares for me in every single way,
so don't take it too hard okay?



loves,
mabel.

LOVED. (:

& sooooo, MY FIRST CELEBRATION. (:
Last night.
at copthorne, had some awesomeeee buffet,
and my very wonderful cake! =D
for the last 10 years!
every year, daddy will order this amazing cake from four seasons.
its really delicious! ((:
and i only get to have it every once a year.
hehhhhhh!

this year's bday's abit different.
mmm,
my cousin and future cousin to be is inside!
and my lovely uncleeeeee! (:

i feel sooooo loved! =D


i have to specially thank,
my dearestttt,
MUMMY &DADDY.
for giving me such a wonderful birthday.
THANKYOU!

heeeeees,
and mummy secretly placed a present on my bed beside me,
while i was sleeping.
hehhhh.


off to bath~
ciaos~!

REFRESHHHH!

it's 820pm! =D

and soooo,

many things happened recently!

erpsssss, i think i'm missing out on some memoriessss.

damnnnn!

i want to specially thank,

my dearestttt dearesttttt,

JERIDYNLIM & ZWENWEN.

mmm,

you guys are like the greatest greatest gift to me from god!

thanks for being there when i needed you guys,

and really thanks for keeping my memory for me. (:

i feel really happy and reallly lucky to be loved by you both!

i thank god,

for giving me a chance to start a fresh,

for taking that part which was not meant to be there

away from me.

thank god, for giving me another chance , another life.

thank god for helping me, for listening to my prayers. (:

and thank god for bestowing such lovely friends around me!

mygoddd,

there are like sooo many people i have to thank,

and i really really am happy to have so many people around me who loves me,

and who care for me! =D

i'm sorry if i ever treated anyone of you,

like you were not suppose to.

and i sincerely wish, from the bottom of my heart,

that everyone is to be happy,

and to be able to find themselves somewhere in life.

failure is not the end,

because, it's the start of a new beginning! (:

do not ever blame anyone,

but reflect deeply upon yourself.

because, i did found myself.

i've successfully created a new life!

striving for europeeee! =DD

JIAYOUS!

thedays.

it's 328am,
friday night.

had a chat with a friend few days back,
thinking back.
such lovely memories.

the world's changing so fast.
time flies.
how i wished i could just paused it,
right there, right then.
that exact moment in my head right now.
it was beautiful.


sometimes, when your moving too fast ahead,
people tend to forget why they even started.
as simple as it is, it's still complicated.
changes made, targets changed.
greed, evil, surfaced~

regrets are inevitable,
though its all over, behind you.
people tend to look back, pause,
and always want to turn back the time.
but no, it can never be.
we can only look forward and be a better person.
whatever learnt, will always stay with you.
despite 20318472358241miles away.

never complain, criticize or condemn.
everybody's got their own story,
everyone's got a heart.

whatever he/she may look,
how ever bad he/she may be.
no matter what he/she did.
we must always learn to forgive and forget,
grudges are the worst thing that can happen.
because, it will always make one unhappy.



through this,
i learnt.
if god were to give me another chance to choose,
i'd still choose you.
because,
that's love.


&i'm happy that you are.
godbless.

free.

& i do.


you,
made me thought it could.
you,
made it happen.
you,
allowed it to.
you
created life.
you,
never fail to create happiness.

that's why i love you.


" if i can't, i must. if i must, i can! "
(:

your the greatest gift,
at the greatest moment.

thankyou for coming in.

change.

it's 848pm,

& i'm, in office, again.
it has just been less than 48 hours.
and i'm almost giving up.
but, my heart says, no.

yesterday's been a pretty long day,
it felt like it was probably 3 days added together.

just want to really let him know,
i've learnt alot from him and us.
this relationship, this bond.
i know i'm just hurting right now,
but yet, hes been hurt for the past few months.
and lousy me, being a girlf cant even do any changes.
altho, i always say i would,
but still did not take notice.

i'm sorry,
i can't do without you,
can't let you go.

but, after a talk,
i've come to realise,
i can't do this.
keeping you by me, is not a problem solved.
it's only for me, for this short period.
loving a person, is to be happy with him/her.

if leaving me, would make you happy,
i'd gladly.

had a talk with a friend,
he said,
"she left me because she love me,
because she knows i'd be better without her,
i can strive harder and work harder, without being pulled down by relationship."
and i fully understood, whats love.

i know, i should have realised it soon enough,
but it's too late.
i know i should change,
in almost everything.
i'm going to go all out for it.

you shall have your life, your fun, your love.
for nothing's left of me in you, but a scar.
i truly regret hurting you badly,
and did'tn give you the love you should get.
i'm sorry yet again.

i missed you,
but i know i'll be strong.
you might never want to see me again,
but this i promise, the very next time you see me,
it's a different me.
because, i love you, and i cherish this.



we'll be, if we're meant to be.